Facing & Handling It

The task of life is to face sacred moments.

– Abraham Joshua Heschel

 

The 1-month countdown to my 27th birthday begins in a few days, and although this was not my initial thought, the thought of advancing in age (and what this all comes with) has crept up on me. Gasp!

I am, by nature, one of the most intense/complex people that I know… and I believe my mother would say the same about me. However, the more emotional and psychological strain I’ve  taken, I sense myself (paradoxically so?) becoming a little lighter and more invested with in congratulating myself on work well done, people ‘well-treated’, and life ‘well-manoeuvred’.

This practice/task of loving yourself more is a tough ass process, don’t you worry. Not only is it centered around the self, but the by-products of it are far-reaching. This doesn’t mean life is automatically ‘kinder’, but more than that, God grants you the grace to handle it all with better savoir faire [read: competence].

I think that this is something I’m going to need to re-learn year after year, and day after day. Ngi-ready!

Acknowledging (and also establishing) moments and spaces of sanctity becomes the lifeline: it could be through practicing yoga, swimming, singing, reading, or taking yourself on brunch dates. Yes, I’m letting you into my reality right now.

I’ve been feeling my way around this over the past 2-3 months, and even though I know that my level of devotion to my Soul’s ‘true north’ isn’t quite where it must be, just the fact that I wonder about these things… and that I am gradually mastering this independence (paid for in ways I’ll only go into in future) – this is sufficient for me.

So what does it all mean? This about-to-be-a-year-older status? Well…

Here are 3 things that have become easier for me to do in 2018, and that I intend to focus even more on the more I mature:

 

1.

LETTING THE ‘CRACKS’ SHOW (SHOULD THEY) WITHOUT FEELING SHAME

2.

RELEASING REJECTION FROM OTHERS INSTEAD OF ALLOWING IT TO WEIGH ME DOWN

3.

FOCUSING ON THE MAIN THING – AND LETTING IT BE THE MAIN THING

 

I hope that you find yourself in spaces where the affirming of who you are engulfs you and empowers you to be an outstanding You.

 

Take good care.

xx bongeka

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